Friday, July 24, 2009

What an Awesome week...until that one thing...

So folks this has been an awesome week! I listened to an awesome audio book, read three noels by my new fave author, E. Lynn Harris(get into it!!), I studied my ass of for the LSAT, and I even picked up an extra shift at work, after I had already picked up three! It was the grave yard shift, which is interesting, I was there by myself for a few hours jammin listening to my ipod. too funny I gave a full concert from The "I am...Sasha Fierce"album...too funny...good times.

I was checking facebook the other day, and I got a message from my most recent ex-gf, she was telling me that her gradnmother had died. I really want to be there for her, but I can't get off work for the funeral. I feel s awful or her, because both of us were raised by our grandmothers and I knowI would be to through with lie i something happened to my gram!! I'm gonna pray for her and try to send a card or something over. I might go buy some flowers and send them to the funeral. UUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!

Right nowI'm waiting on my uniform to get out of the dryer, so I can get ready for work in a few hours. I'm at my uncle's house and I'm gonna walk home later on. I'e been trying to incorporate walking into my transportation routine again, there's no poin in wasting gas going eerywhere especially when this is the only chance I hae to get excercise, since I work so many diferent times of day...you know how work in the food industry is, especially for a part-timer...thank God this is not my life-long job! This has made it clear to me that I must continue my education!!!

Yours, Truly

Friday, July 17, 2009

Money woes...

I am so tired of all of these new bills popping up! I have to come up with a deducible for getting my car fixed, I have to come up with the payment for six months insurance for the car, I have to register for the LSAT, I have to pay my phone bill for three months, and I have to also support myself for a week before school starts. I have no idea how I'm gonna pay for all of this crap!! I guess I'll have to sign up for several open shifts at work and I'll have to save up all my tips to make sure I can afford to do all the things I wanted to do. And to think, this stuff doesn't even include the money I wanted to spend on a new tattoo and clothing. I really wish there was some help somewhere for me. Also, usually I think to myself, I only have to survive until September, well this September when refunds come out, I don't even have dibs on mine. I have to give it to my grandmother to pay for the car!!! I hate having responsibility!!! UGH!!! I guess this is part of growing up...at least this is what I've been led to believe.

And the band played on...

Okay, I guess I'm officially no longer in the closet. My whole immediate family knows, all of my friends at school know, and both of my exes know. I don't know who else I would NEED to tell, so I'm done telling folks for the time being. I'm still not changing my interested in on facebook...but that's because I don't think that changing things on facebook would help anything. So, for now it is what it is.

But in other news, I'm so sick of people that make plans with me and then cancel them. I have this friend at school that i love dearly, but I will probably never make plans with her again. She was supposed to come up to my hometown in August and drive back to school with me. Today she calls me and tells me she probably won't be doing that, instead she's gonna go home. Now I'm not really mad about her breaking plans with me for her family, I'm just mad that all of a sudden she has decided to break my plans at such a horrible time. I have to know by next Thursday if she's gonna come that way I can buy my bff a plane ticket, if she's not gonna come. Speaking of tickets, maybe I'll see if DLM wants to come up here and ride back with me. I have some decisions to make...

Man, it's been a while...

So, as stated in my previous post, I'm working on LSAT prep. And it is truly kicking my ass! I have never felt so stupid, and it makes me question whether I'm as logical as I like to think I am...this is problematic for a number of reasons: I am the resident advice giver, and I am a know it all...both of which require flawless judgment! I spent several hours studying for the past two days. I have so much work to do!! But I am confident that by the time the test rolls around I'll be fully prepared...that's a little more than two months to prepare. I'm currently trying to develop a test prep schedule/calendar. It is a daunting task, but i'm visiting other blogs around the interwebs to see if there's any guidance...this prep thing is just a daunting task!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Future? I don't understand the question...

So, I've been trying to prepare for my future...but I'm failing miserably. I was supposed to have my personal statement written by now...I have yet to put fingers to keys(because, come on, who actually writes anymore??). I have finally narrowed the list down, but that is all. I have not gone and gotten a transcript from this local school I took a science class at four years ago...so now I'm missing three credits for graduation. I haven't written my letters to potential internship sites(this internship is mandatory!!!)....and I have not even scratched the surface on this LSAT studying...I need help!

So, I'm off to the library with my laptop since there is no tv down there and hopefully I'll be able to do some LSAT practice!

Well, that turned out differently than I expected...

So, on the Fourth of July, I picked Momma up from work and we went back to the house before I went to the family picnic. As we were sitting there talking, I just blurted it out...and she said really like five times. Then she said the oddest thing, "like homosexual-gay?" I just wanted to laugh, but not because that was funny, but because I didn't understand the other possible gays one could be. But I def thought I would get put out or disowned or something...she just told me, "well, we all expected it." So, now the only folks left to tell are Daddy, CG, and WS...all of which aren't really gonna be that hard...I just want to find the right time. I'm kinda relieved, but then again...my coming out story is so boring! Hopefully getting out into the world will be a WHOLE LOT more exciting!