So is this what its like?

I have been run RAGGED!

I'm gonna blame it on the workload and the lack of sleep, plus the gym

*in reality, it may have been the partying form last week...*

But we'll act as though that never happened *wink*

My buddy came back in town for the festivities, it was good to see him.

We drank, laughed, looked at hotties, and partook in the new vice....
We smoked DOZIER, or marijuana...whatever you wanna call it...

I never understood why someone would smoke that on a regular, I get it now...I'm not a regular...but I do understand now!

Update

So I'm actually getting ready for one my LAST days of work!!! I am so ready for it to be over! I recently saw apreview for a movie with Adam Rodriguez of CSI: Miami...and I must say, I don't even know what it is about, but I wanna see it just because that sexy ass man is in it! I have been so in love with him since that show came on! He's the only reason I watch it occasionally now! And I would love to see be asked to join those two in a wrestling match or TOUCH football!!! He's so hot!

But any way, I leave for school on Monday night, we're drving through the night so I can back and hang with my buds and gt some shit taken care o up at the school! I'm so excited to get back to school, where I'm an adult, but not ready or classes...which is why I'm giving myself a little more than a week to get acclimated again. I am however, gonna miss my buddy who's doing domestic exchange or the whole of senior year!!! We have some very interesting convos...lol...usually about the campus hotties and how we'd ravage them if given even the smallest of chances!! I finally registeredfor the damn LSAT, I have to drive an hour away from campus to take it, because all of the cites in the city were filled...isn't that bogus?? anyway, let me go peruse some blogs, and then head to work until the un-Godly hour o 3AM!

time is o the essence...

and frankly, it's running out. I will be in town for less than three more weeks. I have so much to do to prepare or my return to school. So much has been going on. I have truly been slacking on the LSAT front...been reading when @ the library instead of studying like I should. I have to figure out all of the logistics on how I'm gonna get settled once I get back. I need to look for jobs down there and I need to get my financial Aid info together...the IRS's system has been down and that is the last part that I'm waiting on. I still have so much to pay for, but at least the other insurance company is reimbursing me! So that money will go towards pay my insurance premium...so good news there. Also, the bartender at my shop likes me, so we're gonna go out on Thursday...we talked like my whole shit yesterday, and when I left he said that he couldn't wait to see me tomorrow(which is actually today now)! Too bad nothing more can come o this than a few dates! But at least it'll help me learn the ropes a little bit!

What an Awesome week...until that one thing...

So folks this has been an awesome week! I listened to an awesome audio book, read three noels by my new fave author, E. Lynn Harris(get into it!!), I studied my ass of for the LSAT, and I even picked up an extra shift at work, after I had already picked up three! It was the grave yard shift, which is interesting, I was there by myself for a few hours jammin listening to my ipod. too funny I gave a full concert from The "I am...Sasha Fierce"album...too funny...good times.

I was checking facebook the other day, and I got a message from my most recent ex-gf, she was telling me that her gradnmother had died. I really want to be there for her, but I can't get off work for the funeral. I feel s awful or her, because both of us were raised by our grandmothers and I knowI would be to through with lie i something happened to my gram!! I'm gonna pray for her and try to send a card or something over. I might go buy some flowers and send them to the funeral. UUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!

Right nowI'm waiting on my uniform to get out of the dryer, so I can get ready for work in a few hours. I'm at my uncle's house and I'm gonna walk home later on. I'e been trying to incorporate walking into my transportation routine again, there's no poin in wasting gas going eerywhere especially when this is the only chance I hae to get excercise, since I work so many diferent times of day...you know how work in the food industry is, especially for a part-timer...thank God this is not my life-long job! This has made it clear to me that I must continue my education!!!

Yours, Truly

The Journey Has Begun

So, I had my first experince where I lost someone after coming out to them. I truly felt that everything was alright after I told LC, my former bff(or so I thought). I mean she was cool, she didn't call em that often anyway and we didn't hang out very often anyway, since she goes to school in our home state and I don't. I have felt that we were growing apart for quite some time, but I figured it was because I was becoming more comfortable being ymself at school, and I still had to wear the facade at home. So, I felt that in order to work on our relationship I come out to her; her initial reaction shocked me, but only because recently she became uber-religious and conservative. The day I told her she called me up and was like where is this coming from, I didn't understand the question. She asked why i was coming out now...I still don't quite understand why I feel like I shoudl tell my folks about my sexuality, but something tells me I should...I think it has something to do with trying to be comfortable with my folk. But anyway...

since I've been homw this summer, things have been really awkward with the two folks that are my supposed bffs, LC and SMM. Me and SMM have worked on our relationship and now I can talk about anything with her; LC was not willing to talk when I told her i thought we needed to talk...I haven't spoken to her since she said that. She has commented on my facebook, and sent me text messages acting like there is nothign wrong, I can't even deal with it...and whenever i get ready to talk about my bffs, the people that come to mind are SMM and DLM...and I feel like this has been the more acurate picture since I started college.