So is this what its like?

I have been run RAGGED!

I'm gonna blame it on the workload and the lack of sleep, plus the gym

*in reality, it may have been the partying form last week...*

But we'll act as though that never happened *wink*

My buddy came back in town for the festivities, it was good to see him.

We drank, laughed, looked at hotties, and partook in the new vice....
We smoked DOZIER, or marijuana...whatever you wanna call it...

I never understood why someone would smoke that on a regular, I get it now...I'm not a regular...but I do understand now!

time is o the essence...

and frankly, it's running out. I will be in town for less than three more weeks. I have so much to do to prepare or my return to school. So much has been going on. I have truly been slacking on the LSAT front...been reading when @ the library instead of studying like I should. I have to figure out all of the logistics on how I'm gonna get settled once I get back. I need to look for jobs down there and I need to get my financial Aid info together...the IRS's system has been down and that is the last part that I'm waiting on. I still have so much to pay for, but at least the other insurance company is reimbursing me! So that money will go towards pay my insurance premium...so good news there. Also, the bartender at my shop likes me, so we're gonna go out on Thursday...we talked like my whole shit yesterday, and when I left he said that he couldn't wait to see me tomorrow(which is actually today now)! Too bad nothing more can come o this than a few dates! But at least it'll help me learn the ropes a little bit!

What an Awesome week...until that one thing...

So folks this has been an awesome week! I listened to an awesome audio book, read three noels by my new fave author, E. Lynn Harris(get into it!!), I studied my ass of for the LSAT, and I even picked up an extra shift at work, after I had already picked up three! It was the grave yard shift, which is interesting, I was there by myself for a few hours jammin listening to my ipod. too funny I gave a full concert from The "I am...Sasha Fierce"album...too funny...good times.

I was checking facebook the other day, and I got a message from my most recent ex-gf, she was telling me that her gradnmother had died. I really want to be there for her, but I can't get off work for the funeral. I feel s awful or her, because both of us were raised by our grandmothers and I knowI would be to through with lie i something happened to my gram!! I'm gonna pray for her and try to send a card or something over. I might go buy some flowers and send them to the funeral. UUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!

Right nowI'm waiting on my uniform to get out of the dryer, so I can get ready for work in a few hours. I'm at my uncle's house and I'm gonna walk home later on. I'e been trying to incorporate walking into my transportation routine again, there's no poin in wasting gas going eerywhere especially when this is the only chance I hae to get excercise, since I work so many diferent times of day...you know how work in the food industry is, especially for a part-timer...thank God this is not my life-long job! This has made it clear to me that I must continue my education!!!

Yours, Truly

Well, that turned out differently than I expected...

So, on the Fourth of July, I picked Momma up from work and we went back to the house before I went to the family picnic. As we were sitting there talking, I just blurted it out...and she said really like five times. Then she said the oddest thing, "like homosexual-gay?" I just wanted to laugh, but not because that was funny, but because I didn't understand the other possible gays one could be. But I def thought I would get put out or disowned or something...she just told me, "well, we all expected it." So, now the only folks left to tell are Daddy, CG, and WS...all of which aren't really gonna be that hard...I just want to find the right time. I'm kinda relieved, but then again...my coming out story is so boring! Hopefully getting out into the world will be a WHOLE LOT more exciting!

The First Payday at the New Job

So i went out to my job and picked up my check...this bitch was for 8.67...seriously...I wanted to laugh and cry...lol...I need the next pay period to get here soon!!

I'm supposed to be going out with my ex-gf from High School, we have a great time when she's not trying to fuck me...which she tries everytime, but I am not doing that, I wanna stay friends. But anyway she's supposed to be taking out and I'm supposed to drive. Here's the kicker: today my car finally got put in the shop, I got rear-ended earlier this month. The shop owner told me that more than likely, my car will be totaled and it is only worth 2100-2800 dollars...def not enough to get me another car in good shape like this one was. I feel like everytime I try to make some progress there is something dragging me, kicking and screaming, back to square one.

This shit is depressing...but there are more pressing issues in my life...like trying to get fucked up tonight!

The First Day of the Job...CcccRRRRRAAAAZZZZYYYY!!!!!!

So, today was my first day of work...I had to get my ass up at the ass-crack of dawn!! Hell, I was up before then! I forgot to shave last night, so when i went back to sleep after my first alarm...I awoke with a start and had to rush around the house trying to find my clippers to fix my facial hair. But after this hell-atious morning at home, I made it to work early...you'll never believe what I ran into: I couldn't even pick up my damned uniforms, until an hour into my shift...wardobe doesn't open until 7...my shift starts at 6...I had to call in that I would be late on my first DAMN day!!! So, to make up for it, I worked my ass off! I turned my A.D.D. off and listened intently with my damn-near useless ears! and guess what! They all loved me...And now, I shall do what no one else can do better: I shall kiss my own ass! LOL

I'm exhausted and need to go to sleep, but my dad went to the hospital for some back pain...and he still ain't back so I gotta wait for his ass to get out...I'm his ride! And I have to avoid answering my phone...one of my ex-girlfriends wants me to come and swim at her place...but last time I went over there, this chick continued to try to seduce me even though I told her I'm gay...she said that just gettting head from her would "turn me back!" Can you believe her? I love her dearly, but damn...we broke up when i was a junior in High school!!! I'm now a rising senior(graduating in four) move on boo!! :-D

Ooh...before I forget...I saw the Noah's Arc movie, that whole cast is sexy for the most part! I absolutely loved it...the only thing that Sex and the City the movie had over it was that white boy's big ass dick showing...if only there had been some dick in this movie! And I'm starting to get pissed about the re-launch, or failure to relaunch, of Nubian 101...will these bitches get it together??

Anyway, I gotta go...the behind the scenes episode of the Real Housewives of New Jersey is on...and there will be spillage...I love Jaqueline...that bitch is so sweet, and she is fierce in her own little way...that skinny ass bitch Danielle can got kick rocks and choke on a dick for all I care...she a evil ho!